Job Again

So I tendered my resignation two weeks ago and started serving my one-month notification period. I still feel very tired and my stress level has dropped quite a bit at work.

I've been feeling very burnt out recently, and rather distracted as well. First was my medical screening results that was not that good. I had to go through another couple of tests just to get some sort of confirmation. Luckily these tests results returned negative for any form of cancer. That's a major relief. On the down side, I now have to start another 15 months medication on Carbimozole because I have a relapse of my thyroid condition. It seems particularly pessistent in me, always surfacing after a year or two of being 'medically cured'.

Its not life threatening though the doc warned that I must follow up on treatment or risk stressing my heart too much. So there I start my pills popping.

I haven't been very happy at work recently. I don't even feel passionate about what I do anymore. The only thought every morning is I want to go back to bed.

After I tendered, my boss went hysteric. He talked to me on the phone but I was still rather upset about a certain event. So two weeks later and I sent him an email, advising him on the amount I should get on my last pay cheque and that seemed to remind him that I'm still serving my notification period. He came in the next day and we had a talk.

Ok, while I really like to talk, I'm a stranger when it comes to heart-to-heart talk, with someone other than my family. So it needed a bit getting used to before I opened up and told him what was bothering me. I still can't hide my distaste for the big boss who had pissed me off.

Anyway, long story short, I needed moltivation which he sort of did try to remind me of the joys of the job and what I had enjoyed. I did voice my concerns for the 'rewards' system though since I'm still not really seeing the 'rewards'. Also I don't trust that big boss at all, especially since the company owed me part of my salary since Oct 2005. Everytime I get a cheque, the amount's always different, which is just confusing. So I told my direct boss that I want a final cheque and if I do choose to withdraw my resignation letter, then I want the salary thing sorted out.